Natural Motivation, are you there?

I'm not a very motivated person when it comes to housecleaning.
I'm not a very motivated person when it comes to losing weight.
I'm not a very motivated person when it comes to making money or saving money.

Ha!  I would probably prioritize those items in that order:  housecleaning, losing weight, making/saving money. :)

My husband asks, "Doesn't it feel good to accomplish something?"
No.

"Don't you feel a feeling of satisfaction when the house is clean?"
Kinda?

"Aren't you happier when you feel that sense of completion when finishing/achieving something?"
Not really.  I feel happier after spending quality time with friends or after eating a tasty chile relleno.  ;)

My daughter says, "If I were you, I would be really rich by now because I would be saving and investing the money you get each month."

I'm sure she would be and probably will be.

And why can't I just stay motivated enough to get this extra weight off of me?

While I'm surrounded by all of these motivated, Type-A personalities, they don't seem to rub off on me too much...maybe a little bit.  My husband actually said I was a "hard worker" the other day which pretty much made my month.  I don't have to "feel" good to do what I should do, so I won't give up on improving, but I also won't expect to have that natural motivation, either.

I have to wonder if the neurons in my brain are not firing right?

Do I not have enough synaptic connections?

Well, all of my doubts are assuaged whenever I invest time into the Literature class I teach: writing lesson plans, determining what I will teach and how I will teach it, teaching my class, and even grading papers.  It is at these times that I realize there ain't nothing wrong with me or my neurons or synapses!

A fellow teacher once told me that when she is actually teaching, she thinks she feels higher than she would on crack. :)  I actually feel that way sometimes, too.

I enjoy the process of watching my students grow and learn, and I enjoy finishing all of the tasks which are involved in the process!  I do feel so much satisfaction from this work.

I just finished entering my lesson plans for the 4th quarter, and I feel euphoric.  I thank God for giving me this "job".